Just yesterday my email inbox had a link to a natural health site's expose' on some sinister developments going on in Washington, D.C. governmental agencies, bent on destroying our nation's health, and our population, to concur with the sinister goals of global population reduction by 99% by the banker elitists who own and run all our banking systems.
I noticed another entry there that directly impacts my family. It's purposed memory alteration, erasing, and false memory inducement by peers. Well, from my personal experience, ANY trusted person and/or group has the power to alter, mangle, even erase memories we have, especially when we are young children. Many times these criminals have been exposed, but we are strongly alienated from seeing what a trusted friend, counselor, or so-called "professional" counselor we've hired to tell us what's wrong in our head, and then "fix" it, is actually doing to our mind. We simply play along, in blind, religious trust that our mentor has our best interests at heart, and we ASS-ume that we would see and block any such altered reality that we remember.
The fact is, we all remember what we think we remember, not the exact details of a given event in our memory. Then, when a determined mentor sets out to alter that memory, untrue things are added to that memory, by the mentor suggesting small alterations, and then creating a completely different memory from the induced suggestions. Then, when our mind recalls the event, it is the most recent, developed memory that the mind plays back, because the actual event memory has been cloaked by the more recent, far stronger induced elements, and all the determined conditioning that our mentor used to deeply impregnate our mind with this new version of that memory.
It's real, folks. In fact, it's a significant element of everyone's daily living, at least those who who rely on news media, Hollywood, and the established commercial media channels. Every one of those media mongrels has a single-minded purpose, orchestrated by the core banking cartel, to implant their victims' minds with altered memories, conditioned responses to ONLY those things and topics of concern that they, and they alone choose to maintain their audience' blindness to the actual working they are doing to destroy the living standards, family's and all sustainable livelihood of their victim-audience.
I just posted the following on my daughter's blog. It gives a bit of insight to how this beast has destroyed our family with its use of induced, altered, and changed memory . . .
"Our minds and memories are altered with, from, and by peers, psychologists who use memory-altering, erasing, and modifying techniques, especially on young female children, and by those whose goal is to alienate friends, family, and spouses. This real!
It's a shocker, but, we have in our society those who are authorized by governments, courts, and religious groups to bend, warp, re-train, and mutilate the memories and even the brains of unsuspecting individuals, especially young children.
History and lots of recorded research into this heinous crime against friends, family, and even married couples is easily found.
Here's a starter . . .
http://www.naturalnews.com/033059_peer_pressure_memories.html
Reversing this crime is very rare, but the master of Life is fully able and strongly desiring to reconcile those whose living has been warped, twisted, and mutilated by those who despise His Love, His character, and His Way of Life, especially in families, and especially between spouses, and parent-child relationships.
Not being aware of Creator's Way of reconciliation, or worse, ignoring it, is no excuse standing before Him.
Twisted facts, mutilated, fragmented memories, and disjointed, unrelated mental pictures are used by these criminals to plant very evil pictures and memories into their victims' minds. It takes diligent work to reverse the damage, but in the end, warm, loving relationships DO result. These criminal mind-destroyers rely on the fears and hatred that they instill in their victims' minds to maintain their implanted memories, fears, and hatred. Do we allow that to control our living?
I sure hope not!"
In the end, we all face an UN-altered reality of our past. It, this UN-altered reality, is a perfect memory, where REAL events are exactly remembered, and those who induced altered memories are exposed as charlatans, and criminals who worked against spouses, parents and their children, and friendships. Our best way of living is to reconcile with those who have had this devastating victimization action planted in their mind. Our Creator has ONE mind of reconciliation for His Human creatures, the exact opposite of the criminals who use this act of hatred to destroy, separate, and harm relationships.
This crime will take an enormous toll on human life, but it will end. We can choose to work with Creator to end its impact on our personal relationships, and He is waiting to hear us ask Him to make its ending a reality for us, and those we love.
Have you asked Him today?
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Dark Journeys - Journeys Through the Dark -Life Transitions
Pray tell, I beg of you, gentle reader, Has Life left you feeling numb and not certain of your having worth? Have days without illumination stretched into eons of Time with no apparent light to guide your way? Have family, friends, trusted people you thought you could believe in - have these taken flight in mad, rushing haste to abandon you?
Then, dear Soul, welcome to the Dark Journey of Life, where passing through just may be the sole worst experience that Life for you has given, to this very moment. No, no, no! Your senses may well tell you that you are isolated, alone, and have not a single resource to lean upon for solace and some small sense of comforting reassurance, but, in reality, yes, I said REALITY!, many, if not all persons of the Human persuasion, have, or will be soon - too soon - standing right where your trembling legs barely hold you up, at this very moment.
Have you yet listened to the Lady, Enya? Of this transition, this darkness that appears so vague and untrustworthy, Lady Enya fashioned a truly inspiring theme addressing this Dark Journey of transition, where Man has come to face the deep fears of his soul, and then decide for each individual of this race, to move ahead, alone. Lovely Enya took her que for this particular session with her inspiring voice and music to edify this common, yet fearsome Way of Life, from The Way of Life, at the spectacular moment in Human history where the Master of Life entered directly into Mankind's living, historical reference with Life; the Conception, birth, and presentation of Man's Creator, in the Living blood and bone and flesh of Man!
From this awe-inspiring, majestic moment of Life upon Planet Earth, Enya formed a living testimony to the Dark Journey through the black uncertainty of Life Transition!
Rather than merely sing her presentation, Enya eloquently forms its message with both spoken and melodic word, to compose a song that the Soul hears with joy! Here is her opus on the Dark Journey . . .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znmQhptP8VA&feature=related
Following the 'spirit' through Enya's music on YouTube - [where so many share their deepest soul with you and I] here is exactly one Human Being's experience with a Dark Journey . . .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_9KurUMNf4&feature=related
Her heart is broken, and her soul cries for a cool, soothing hand to quiet the flames of sorrow slicing through her breast . . . ."Uploader Comments (HesperosRising)
Then, dear Soul, welcome to the Dark Journey of Life, where passing through just may be the sole worst experience that Life for you has given, to this very moment. No, no, no! Your senses may well tell you that you are isolated, alone, and have not a single resource to lean upon for solace and some small sense of comforting reassurance, but, in reality, yes, I said REALITY!, many, if not all persons of the Human persuasion, have, or will be soon - too soon - standing right where your trembling legs barely hold you up, at this very moment.
Have you yet listened to the Lady, Enya? Of this transition, this darkness that appears so vague and untrustworthy, Lady Enya fashioned a truly inspiring theme addressing this Dark Journey of transition, where Man has come to face the deep fears of his soul, and then decide for each individual of this race, to move ahead, alone. Lovely Enya took her que for this particular session with her inspiring voice and music to edify this common, yet fearsome Way of Life, from The Way of Life, at the spectacular moment in Human history where the Master of Life entered directly into Mankind's living, historical reference with Life; the Conception, birth, and presentation of Man's Creator, in the Living blood and bone and flesh of Man!
From this awe-inspiring, majestic moment of Life upon Planet Earth, Enya formed a living testimony to the Dark Journey through the black uncertainty of Life Transition!
Rather than merely sing her presentation, Enya eloquently forms its message with both spoken and melodic word, to compose a song that the Soul hears with joy! Here is her opus on the Dark Journey . . .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znmQhptP8VA&feature=related
Following the 'spirit' through Enya's music on YouTube - [where so many share their deepest soul with you and I] here is exactly one Human Being's experience with a Dark Journey . . .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_9KurUMNf4&feature=related
Her heart is broken, and her soul cries for a cool, soothing hand to quiet the flames of sorrow slicing through her breast . . . ."Uploader Comments (HesperosRising)
Sunday, July 3, 2011
The Waves Are Coming! The Waves . . .
Well, it's really Google Waves that have come!
I've added this socializing tool to my Google Experience, so that those who want and need to converse with me have what I hope pans out to be a convenient method to do things for relationship that nurture and grow each one.
Of course, with communication tools, such as being able to speak words, send words and visual images to another, to write letters and books, magazines and other publications, to have any means to exchange concepts about anything with another human has ever-present powers that are very, very determined to use all acts of communication to destroy the relationship.
From misunderstandings to outright hostilities, humans' interactions all too often are carried from good relationship to animosity. From animosity to hostility, and worse. It just takes a little lack of respect to start a fast spiral downward into disrespect, hate, and hostility, so with Google Wave, I will be looking for all the good, but very aware that destruction of relationship is lurking in te shadows of every interaction.
Thanks Google Guys!
I've added this socializing tool to my Google Experience, so that those who want and need to converse with me have what I hope pans out to be a convenient method to do things for relationship that nurture and grow each one.
Of course, with communication tools, such as being able to speak words, send words and visual images to another, to write letters and books, magazines and other publications, to have any means to exchange concepts about anything with another human has ever-present powers that are very, very determined to use all acts of communication to destroy the relationship.
From misunderstandings to outright hostilities, humans' interactions all too often are carried from good relationship to animosity. From animosity to hostility, and worse. It just takes a little lack of respect to start a fast spiral downward into disrespect, hate, and hostility, so with Google Wave, I will be looking for all the good, but very aware that destruction of relationship is lurking in te shadows of every interaction.
Thanks Google Guys!
Yesterday - And the Day Before
A bit ago I woke from a nap - nice to have the time now to rest and rejuvenate almost all I want to! - and before rising I reflected on Life - my experience with it, so far.
This was prompted by my going over family genealogy records sent to me last Summer by a second cousin on my mother's side whom I've never met, and whom I did not know existed before she contacted my out of the Blue, and asked to send this most precious gift, representing her personal years of hard work, and expense.
I lost contact with her shortly after the large volume of records arrived, and now she seems to hav vanished from earth.
That got me to thinking how like that it is with my children's mother. She appeared suddenly in my life, we loved each other almost from that moment, and married, sharing living together for 27 years, having 4 dear children, and then she vanished even more quickly, and, permanently, believing things about me that just simply are not true.
I am beginning to understand how human life works.
It, this Life stuff, takes place without one's being able to stop it. Oh, many people and things can stop others lives, but until and during one has the means to end Life, Life remains until age, disease, or accident removes it. But, even then Eternal Life goes on, and no human has power to halt it.
Relationships, between humans, create the quality of the life experienced. Even then, if a particular experience comes along in a relationship, one or more of those relatives may choose to end their participation in the relationship, such as a son or a daughter abandoning the parent, or the whole family, or a sibling. Even then, most people want and need to establish a similar relationship with someone else to replace the lost or rejected person's presence.
An event in my life happened during my 11th year that developed into my abandoning my relationship with my family. It involved each of my parents, and, even though it was an exceptional hurt that I felt they had no right to inflict on me, it was my choice to permanently renounce them as my parents that has made my life very, very miserable, especially in relation to making, maintaining, and encouraging all my relationships with my children, their mother, my second wife, and to anyone else. That single choice I made at age 11 has so warped my entire living experience that I sometimes wonder if I ever had a good reason to be.
The trauma of this particular incident became a consuming fire of resentment in my whole heart and mind, so that any time my thoughts included my family, especially my parents, my internal person became violent with resentment, abusive to myself image, and then went on to outwardly hurt and harm and eventually destroy my most close and precious relationships.
I'm 66 this year, and it's taken me these past 55 years to come to terms with what I now think of as an ultimate form of suicide. One form of death where the body is yet living, even very healthy, but it has lost all the essential components of having meaningful relatonships with other human beings. Sometimesit seems, real death would be such a wonderful thing for me, since why am I still alive, yet so alone in Life?
I hope my children and their mom read this sometime, as I think it will aid in their sense of hurt and shame regarding my being husband and father who failed so miserably for each of my precious family. If so, wife, child, then you are the one whom I hope to restore some of the missed and destroyed goodness of your relationship with me. After all is said, and my life, and yours is lived out, you and I honestly deserve to have experienced a wonderful relationship, regardless of those things that have happened to us that damaged and destroyed ours. You deserve, from me, all I can do to make your understanding and experience of relationships a rewarding one, and a warm memory to reflect on, and to pass on to your own children - my children by you.
Maybe the following will help you understand my dilemma a bit;
At 11, I stopped any sense of maturing. I decided that I would leave home ASAP - I was 19 and fresh out of H.S. when I fled my home - and find a suitable girl to marry, and then, and only then, I would resume my maturing as a man. Yes, bad error in my thinking, but I so wanted to experience the joy of becoming a man with those I felt loved me, that I chose to find another family to mature my own person with. I felt that with my wife, and my children, that I could control the experience, and not find myself feeling so abused and denigrated as I had felt with my mom and dad.
Well, just the opposite, naturally, happened. My sweetheart and mother of my children had no way to understand my neurosis, nor did she have the knowledge to open my heart to the damage to our relationship, and to our precious children that my warped reality caused us all. She, thankfully, stayed with me until our 25th anniversary. Honey, that's 25 years of marital joy I did not earn. I cannot love you less for abandoning me, but how I hurt!
Reflecting back over these years passed since you left me, now going on 19 of them, I do know that we surely would have found the healing and health to our relationship and love, had you maintained our marriage. But, you chose what you did from desperation, and who am I to blame you?
I purposed in my heart back at 11 to grow up with my kids. It sounds so silly, but a major part of the resentment I had for my folks was how they diligently watched my every friendship everywhere, and stepped in behind my back to severe all relationships with children they did not approve of, for whatever reason. It was this series of destroyed childhood relationships, plus the seclusive living my folks made for their family that resulted in my resorting to looking for those whom I could have clandestine, secretive relationships with, out of the eyes of "authority" figures.
This furtive mindset to develop secretive relationships applied to my children, as it had to their mother when we first met. I simply felt too vulnerable and weak to find and maintain a relationship openly, in the face of even the smallest objection, and my weakness resulted in having only relationships which I felt I could control. With my dear wife, this warped sense of relationship control quickly led to us becoming dissatisfied with our marriage, but not educated or resourceful enough to correct it. One thing led to another, and my life and those I had relationships with betrayed my honor to my wife and our family, and then went on to relationship that developed for her with men she far preferred to me as husband, and then to one whom she especially adored, and believed, who proceeded to openly defame our marriage, and she finally succumbed to his dishonorable intentions.
I must be quick to say it was all my fault for her leaving, but the final act was hers, and she must take full accountability for the destroyed family. That's Life, dear.
Now, let's take this full circle. It started with the reflection that Life is so uncontrollable for every human being. Who can order their conception? Birth? Marital and children experiences? Who orders their death at will, even though one can cause self-death, the experiences that led up to the decision were not controllable. And,who defies death? Who has power to stop Life after death? Who can go from life to death, and back, at will?
Yes, we humans do not have the key of Life. What we do have is choice during the Living each of us experiences, to establish, or not, or to destroy, our relationships. We cannot cause others to respect us; respect is never earned, but wholly it is a gifted core part of every relationship. without respect being gifted, there is no possibility of having relationship between humans. Period!
So, what would have been my marriage with my sweet heart, and children's mother, had she chosen to go on respecting and honoring me, as her vows freely given, so stated? We'd be husband and wife today! There is no other answer.
But, is this not applicable to every human relationship, then? It certainly is!
Nobody has the power to run away from a person who respects them! Oh, we may physically and mentally hide and abandon that respecting person, but the gift of the respect itself is always alive, and that alone forms an unbreakable bond between people. so, for the remaining time I am given to live, I am resolved to respect my children,and their precious mother, and still my dear lover, since each one deserves that from my heart, and my Living.
Yes, it's been a long, rough maturing to a man for me, these 55 years, but, it's worth every moment, every heartbreak, and every lost relationship, even though I'd now give my life to keep each relationship I've lost, especially with my children's mother. Dear, you're worth that, at the least.
Family, live on!
This was prompted by my going over family genealogy records sent to me last Summer by a second cousin on my mother's side whom I've never met, and whom I did not know existed before she contacted my out of the Blue, and asked to send this most precious gift, representing her personal years of hard work, and expense.
I lost contact with her shortly after the large volume of records arrived, and now she seems to hav vanished from earth.
That got me to thinking how like that it is with my children's mother. She appeared suddenly in my life, we loved each other almost from that moment, and married, sharing living together for 27 years, having 4 dear children, and then she vanished even more quickly, and, permanently, believing things about me that just simply are not true.
I am beginning to understand how human life works.
It, this Life stuff, takes place without one's being able to stop it. Oh, many people and things can stop others lives, but until and during one has the means to end Life, Life remains until age, disease, or accident removes it. But, even then Eternal Life goes on, and no human has power to halt it.
Relationships, between humans, create the quality of the life experienced. Even then, if a particular experience comes along in a relationship, one or more of those relatives may choose to end their participation in the relationship, such as a son or a daughter abandoning the parent, or the whole family, or a sibling. Even then, most people want and need to establish a similar relationship with someone else to replace the lost or rejected person's presence.
An event in my life happened during my 11th year that developed into my abandoning my relationship with my family. It involved each of my parents, and, even though it was an exceptional hurt that I felt they had no right to inflict on me, it was my choice to permanently renounce them as my parents that has made my life very, very miserable, especially in relation to making, maintaining, and encouraging all my relationships with my children, their mother, my second wife, and to anyone else. That single choice I made at age 11 has so warped my entire living experience that I sometimes wonder if I ever had a good reason to be.
The trauma of this particular incident became a consuming fire of resentment in my whole heart and mind, so that any time my thoughts included my family, especially my parents, my internal person became violent with resentment, abusive to myself image, and then went on to outwardly hurt and harm and eventually destroy my most close and precious relationships.
I'm 66 this year, and it's taken me these past 55 years to come to terms with what I now think of as an ultimate form of suicide. One form of death where the body is yet living, even very healthy, but it has lost all the essential components of having meaningful relatonships with other human beings. Sometimesit seems, real death would be such a wonderful thing for me, since why am I still alive, yet so alone in Life?
I hope my children and their mom read this sometime, as I think it will aid in their sense of hurt and shame regarding my being husband and father who failed so miserably for each of my precious family. If so, wife, child, then you are the one whom I hope to restore some of the missed and destroyed goodness of your relationship with me. After all is said, and my life, and yours is lived out, you and I honestly deserve to have experienced a wonderful relationship, regardless of those things that have happened to us that damaged and destroyed ours. You deserve, from me, all I can do to make your understanding and experience of relationships a rewarding one, and a warm memory to reflect on, and to pass on to your own children - my children by you.
Maybe the following will help you understand my dilemma a bit;
At 11, I stopped any sense of maturing. I decided that I would leave home ASAP - I was 19 and fresh out of H.S. when I fled my home - and find a suitable girl to marry, and then, and only then, I would resume my maturing as a man. Yes, bad error in my thinking, but I so wanted to experience the joy of becoming a man with those I felt loved me, that I chose to find another family to mature my own person with. I felt that with my wife, and my children, that I could control the experience, and not find myself feeling so abused and denigrated as I had felt with my mom and dad.
Well, just the opposite, naturally, happened. My sweetheart and mother of my children had no way to understand my neurosis, nor did she have the knowledge to open my heart to the damage to our relationship, and to our precious children that my warped reality caused us all. She, thankfully, stayed with me until our 25th anniversary. Honey, that's 25 years of marital joy I did not earn. I cannot love you less for abandoning me, but how I hurt!
Reflecting back over these years passed since you left me, now going on 19 of them, I do know that we surely would have found the healing and health to our relationship and love, had you maintained our marriage. But, you chose what you did from desperation, and who am I to blame you?
I purposed in my heart back at 11 to grow up with my kids. It sounds so silly, but a major part of the resentment I had for my folks was how they diligently watched my every friendship everywhere, and stepped in behind my back to severe all relationships with children they did not approve of, for whatever reason. It was this series of destroyed childhood relationships, plus the seclusive living my folks made for their family that resulted in my resorting to looking for those whom I could have clandestine, secretive relationships with, out of the eyes of "authority" figures.
This furtive mindset to develop secretive relationships applied to my children, as it had to their mother when we first met. I simply felt too vulnerable and weak to find and maintain a relationship openly, in the face of even the smallest objection, and my weakness resulted in having only relationships which I felt I could control. With my dear wife, this warped sense of relationship control quickly led to us becoming dissatisfied with our marriage, but not educated or resourceful enough to correct it. One thing led to another, and my life and those I had relationships with betrayed my honor to my wife and our family, and then went on to relationship that developed for her with men she far preferred to me as husband, and then to one whom she especially adored, and believed, who proceeded to openly defame our marriage, and she finally succumbed to his dishonorable intentions.
I must be quick to say it was all my fault for her leaving, but the final act was hers, and she must take full accountability for the destroyed family. That's Life, dear.
Now, let's take this full circle. It started with the reflection that Life is so uncontrollable for every human being. Who can order their conception? Birth? Marital and children experiences? Who orders their death at will, even though one can cause self-death, the experiences that led up to the decision were not controllable. And,who defies death? Who has power to stop Life after death? Who can go from life to death, and back, at will?
Yes, we humans do not have the key of Life. What we do have is choice during the Living each of us experiences, to establish, or not, or to destroy, our relationships. We cannot cause others to respect us; respect is never earned, but wholly it is a gifted core part of every relationship. without respect being gifted, there is no possibility of having relationship between humans. Period!
So, what would have been my marriage with my sweet heart, and children's mother, had she chosen to go on respecting and honoring me, as her vows freely given, so stated? We'd be husband and wife today! There is no other answer.
But, is this not applicable to every human relationship, then? It certainly is!
Nobody has the power to run away from a person who respects them! Oh, we may physically and mentally hide and abandon that respecting person, but the gift of the respect itself is always alive, and that alone forms an unbreakable bond between people. so, for the remaining time I am given to live, I am resolved to respect my children,and their precious mother, and still my dear lover, since each one deserves that from my heart, and my Living.
Yes, it's been a long, rough maturing to a man for me, these 55 years, but, it's worth every moment, every heartbreak, and every lost relationship, even though I'd now give my life to keep each relationship I've lost, especially with my children's mother. Dear, you're worth that, at the least.
Family, live on!
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I just read ur comments today...may God grant you solace and bring you into a new season in your life, of joy and peace; and better days ahead, if you look to the Maker of all things, Jesus Christ.
I lost my Dad last November, but, there can be nothing worse than losing a mate...my heart goes out to you.
Blessings,
L.
V.
To which this dear widow shares . . .
@Layna8
Thank you L, blessings to you as well and Happiest of Holidays
Oh My! Yet another update for this post! Of course, it's Enya!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TffmVU44oQA&feature=related
Here, she speaks to her Dark Passage from the child she so enjoyed being. Don't each of us have such a Dark Passage?
Dark Passages may seem so infertile, so unfathomable, and utterly worthless to our Living, but, what IF there were none?
Ponder Life without Dark Journies . . . .
Enya speaks poignantly, with clear authority, on our Dark Passages, AND, the Day that follows each passing we make . . .
[I'll leave titles remain a surprise for each of the following links!]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhRWrf5-XH4&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nTGHMOuV8A&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P9EaMe4duKM&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7KECjF17M8&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tcaxaPlUffg&feature=fvwrel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZ98IJ0usoE&feature=relmfu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2C68nicab4s&feature=relmfu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uinlWB5W8rU&feature=relmfu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cuDDPF6vE6Y&feature=relmfu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IQU4DoE1eBg&feature=relmfu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fI-U6Rp0mpA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7wfYIMyS_dI&feature=related